For the past several days I have been participating in this blog challenge. Today's challenge was to write about the things you're most afraid of. Honestly, I was going to skip this one. I didn't want to write it, and as I thought about why, I realized that in the act of doing so, I would be addressing some of my worst fears.
I'm afraid of being vulnerable. I don't want to tell you my fears, because then you will know my weaknesses, and I will be vulnerable. I'm afraid of opening up to you. I like to keep things light and on the surface. If I show you who I am, it will give you the opportunity to judge me, and I am afraid of being rejected. I'm afraid of putting myself out there and of chasing my dreams, because I am a perfectionist, and I don't want to fail. I'm afraid that these fears are holding me back from living my life to the fullest. I know they are.
Whenever I start thinking this way, I have to remind myself to get out of my own head. First of all, what I do and what I say is not that important. Second of all, when I start thinking this way, I am usually only considering myself, instead of how I could be caring for, relating to, or serving someone else. I'm sure I'll never conquer these fears completely, but I'm constantly striving to take small steps to stifle them.
What is it that you are afraid of? How do you overcome these fears when they surface?